Life..

It has been nearly a year since I last wrote a blog post and for that I am truly sorry. I’m not sure I can even call myself a 'blogger' these days. However, this morning I felt the urge to write something by way of an update so here we are. Back in the game. I have missed it.

The problem with being shit at blogging regularly is that I now don’t know where to start by way of an update, so I’m going to approach it as though we were having a chat in Tesco. One of those bullet-point type chats where you attempt to summarise everything in your life that’s happened lately, before the kids kick off. Let’s start with Theo.

Theo is now in full time nursery, including school meals!! Something I was very anxious about though he is doing so well. He is still loving his tablet though he has also chosen toys that are his favorites including a baby born doll, a doll from wreck it Ralph and, much to Lees horror a troll doll - don't get me wrong he doesn't mind the dolls, he doesn't like that this particular doll sings. It sings one song. Theo presses the button constantly- there is only so many times you can hear "trolls just want to have fun..." before your sanity gets affected. He is trying to communicate now which is amazing and there is sounds being made as well as some recognisable repeated sounds; "appy" for nappy, "daaaaaaaaaad" well duh, but needs the extra a's because Theo is very excited with seeing daddy nowadays. He's getting on very well with his sign as well, to point he had an eye test near enough completely in sign - it was amazing. His understanding is as always outstanding and I'm forever proud of him. sleeping is still not a strong point with waking up though some nights are better than others with this(sadly it doesn't matter how tired he gets during the day). He's still using the potty(though only at home and when he gets to run around with no bottoms on). Theo is also loving marketing, even if this results in a Picasso all over himself rather than the colouring books/paper. Something that has taken me by surprise is his seeking out to play with certain slime types and play dough which is activities he used to hate and refuse to be part of.

I have almost completely redecorated our flat, new furniture in most rooms and just painting/wallpapering to be done now. It feels great to have a fresh start having not brought anything to update flat since I first moved in 10years ago?! How things have changed in that time. Feeling so much happier with how the flat feels now. After declutting 10years of tat build up my flat feels like a lot roomier.

I have been struggling with my mental health recently as most of the world is doing with this pandemic, this is causing my emotions to be all over the place, snappy, tears and closing myself off. I have been trying to work out a balance between work and home and just feel I am failing. I have been working weekends but then this results in me barely seeing/spending anytime with Theo - seeing him before and after nursery and not at all at the weekend. I will push through and sort out a balance I hope.

I think that’s about the measure of it. The actual bullet-points would be:

• Tired

• Busy

• Emotional

• Unverified

Until the next time.

B x